long-distance love…
Monday, February 13th, 2006
"I am in a relationship. And so far, I can safely say I’m happy being in it. You see, I am happy to finally settle in a relationship that’s been weathered by life’s pain and difficulties. Despite not seeing him for 11 months every year, I feel contented enough with our present set-up, communicating only by text messaging, phone calls and occasional e-mails.
Living life a thousand miles away from him has given me some sense of control and freedom, but not without the occasional pangs of loneliness everytime I am reminded that yes, I am physically single in this part of the world. Though I am not that desensitized to a possible attraction with another male, I always mentally remind myself that, hey, I am not in any way available anymore, and that whatever I do will have its repercussion in my life in one way or another, like it or not. I will not give in to the demons appearing from time to time.
The difficult thing with being physically single is that you always have to remind yourself that you do belong to someone out there on the other side of the world, but unfortunately, he can’t be with you right now, sorry. Of course, being physically single doesn’t give me the right to flirt in any which way I want. I could have friends, of course. I could even still go out on a date. But at the end of the day, I have to face the reality that I am alone. Physically, that is. And the hardest part is in getting used to it.
However, I keep telling myself that the physical distance between us is just one of the tests our relationship must go through. If we can overcome this situation, we will be strong enough to face any other problems coming our way. Maybe I should have chosen someone who would be near me whenever I need him, but then again, we can’t really predict who we fall in love with. True to say, love does move in mysterious ways.
And so it passes… The clock is ticking, and just like all the other nights that came and went, I am still alone. It’s been going on like this for more than 3 years, but honestly, I’d rather be alone physically than jeopardize the relationship with the one man I truly love.
Sure, it’s hard being alone. But it’s not something anyone can’t get used to (even if it takes the longest time to get used to it). I look at his picture and smile, knowing that on the other side of the world, I do belong to someone. And that on the other side of the world, I am never alone…"
DisTanCe dOes nOT maTTeR… beinG CLOse is an aFFaiR Of The heaRT…
